Who you are...below the belt.

Another day no other dollar

lol

lameness aside(but not for TOO long, don't worry!) I was lying awake last night, staring up into the darkness veiled across the ceiling, it's a funny moment, just staring out into what during the daytime would be just an ordinary room, yet at night it comes alive somehow. At night it tells a different story.

yeah I'm in my mid 20's more or less, but I'm human and at night I still get paranoid to an extent.
If I'm tired but not enough to actually sleep but I don't want to go on my laptop or tablet etc
I'll just lay there, losing myself in the thoughts that arise in the darkness of that room.
Losing time, losing sleep, losing my mind.

really, it just suddenly turns into this whirlwind of semi-fear, both afraid of what may be in the darkness while "knowing" I'm safe.
It's strange, because come the light of day it all feels so silly having been SO paranoid over literally nothing yet once darkness falls again, it doesn't feel so silly anymore.

Now, truthfully, I don't really BELIEVE believe in anything paranormal or supernatural yet I do love the concept of it all.
I suppose that paranoia may be just some part of me that actually hopes somethings going bump in the night.



you ever know you made a typo or used the wrong form of a word etc
lol I've noticed a few things in my posts I've messed up and at the time I even noticed them before I posted YET I ignored it.

kind of a big meh moment

I dunno, it just didn't feel like a BIG deal, I mean the point still gets made and it doesn't hurt anyone...I mean if it DID hurt anyone then obviously I'd have to be vry carefull and not make to manny misstakes her, wouldnt wanna hurt noone.
;{ P  (man winking with mustache and tongue out!)




this is supposed to be raw, straight from the tap, my mind to yours ( or technically I guess, my mind, through my fingers, formed into written word, posted, then read through your eyes, and THEN into your mind...but that sounds like..soo long)


I'm going to try something new here, just to try and feel this whole blog thing out, so get used to the format of these blog posts changing sporadically..(spo-ra-dickly! that's how I say it,you should too!)

so bear with me and who knows, a few weeks or months from now we could have this whole blog thing nailed down..or at least less rattled.

till next time dirty nerdys, take care and remember, InsanityRambles!

(oh yeah totally gunna nail down a sign off phrase one day!)